ummu abdullah

Pagi ini langit bergemuruh  Kabut hitam di langit mulai mericuh  Tetes demi tetesnya berjatuhan  Sembari lega, begitu saja ia pergi meninggalkan  Perihal aroma hujan  Ia sejuk, menenangkan  Petrichor mereka beri nama  Sayangnya, hanya sementara ia menjelma  Tentang senja setelah hujan  Dusta jika mereka tak tertawan  Warna jingga berbaur merah  Ia sementara, namun bagaimana bisa ia begitu indah?  Akupun tertawan Tertawan rindu, pun nostalgia allahumma shoyyiban naafi'an

Berhijrahlah karena Allah Berhijrahlah untuk mengharap keridhoan-Nya Tersebab.. akan Allah tinggikan derajat orang-orang yang berhijrah di jalan-Nya Berhijrahlah karena Allah Berhijrahlah untuk mengharap keridhoan-Nya Tersebab.. akan Allah beri kemenangan yang sesungguhnya Allah berikan kegembiraan. Allah berikan rahmat dan keridhoan Allah berikan kesenangan yang kekal dalam surga-Nya.

he saw me he got me he never bothered to get to know me he didn't respect me & he oppressed me he tormented me & he broke me But, then HE, who is most high, most perfect, saved me Protected me & shielded me it is He, who fixed me He who will be Just with me He who has always truly loved me He who will give, after hardship, ease for me Al Jabbar, Al Kareem, Al Wali Subhana Wata’ala

Jika Nabi Muhammad datang ke rumahmu untuk meluangkan waktu sehari dua hari bersamamu tanpa kabar apa-apa sebelumnya Apakah yang akan kau lakukan untuknya? Akankah kau sembunyikan buku duniamu, lalu kau keluarkan dengan cepat kitab hadist di rak buku? Atau akankah kau sembunyikan majalah-majalahmu, dan kau hiasi mejamu dengan Al-Qur'an yang sudah berdebu? Akankah kau masih melihat sinetron atau film X di TV? atau dengan cepat kau matikan sebelum dilihat Nabi?

I can feel it, I’m holding on by a thread.  I don’t know how much longer I can handle it, not sure how much more I can endure. It’s all the pain and suffering, building and bubbling up inside. Just waiting for something on the outside, to set me off. Then the last thin thread, will break into two. Releasing all the pent up emotions, only to eventually start anew.

My heart heavy, I drop my bag As if the emotional weight of this Dunya isn’t enough, There is physical weight to go with the pain I scan my room Messy As I rush to organize,  My heart keeps tugging at my veins Reminding me.. It’s time for supplication Time for medication Time to turn to your Lord, for he is the Almighty Your sins won’t be taken lightly So repent while you still can And ask for forgiveness from Al-Rahman

One day you will die, And at first people will mourn, When they think of you. But life will go on, And you will be as distant As their last night’s dream. You will still be there, Drowning in a sea of sins, In a lightless hole. And your cries will fall, On the deaf ears of people Ignorant as you. And every soul will Be made aware of the truth Without a warning. How do you warn them, When you couldn’t warn yourself When you were alive. A moment of fun, Has given you nothing but Eternal regret. Remind yourself of The Destroyer of Pleasures Before its too late.

You look at me and call me oppressed, Simply because of the way I’m dressed You know me not for what’s inside, You judge the clothing I wear with pride My body’s not for your eyes to hold, You must speak to my mind, not my feminine mold I’m an individual, I’m no man’s slave, It’s ALLAH’s pleasure that I only crave I have a voice so I will be heard For my heart I carry His word, “O Muslimah wrap close your cloak, So you wont be bothered by ignorant folk” Man does not tell me to dress this way, It’s a Law from ALLAH that I obey Oppressed is something I’m truly not, For liberation is what I’ve got It was given to me many centuries ago, With the right to prosper, the right to grow I can climb mountains or cross the seas, Expand my mind in all degrees For ALLAH Himself gave us LIBERTY, When He sent Islam, To YOU and ME

You're just a muslim looking at the world While I'm looking at the world as a muslim I keep the halal and haram in focus Noticing the ayats of my rabb You try to find a way to make everything halal I look at the news and see brothers and sisters You only see extremist or oppressed fellow worshippers Jannah for me is a goal and destination For you its only an idea which you lack motivation You are democratic While I wouldn't apostate from the shariah from a second Unity is your slogan While I have disavowal(baraa’) to the kuffar You believe all religions are correct While I am on a proof from my Lord

I'm only as young as my heart tells I am Only as old as my brain speaks The sun rises because  i told them so The moon sleeps on my wake I was put here  for a purpose And I’m gonna die a legend You can hurt me and break me And trample me  to the ground But I will stand up and I will rise Because people like me, Who have nothing to lose Have nothing to fear People like me, We reek the blood Of a dozen infinity

I was in serenity praying like the usual person But even I asked to witness another four seasons if it’s my end today then it will be by God’s reason Then, I could be among the graduated creations Before it’s too late, let me apologize I know, I was once the best one in your eyes Since then you removed my right to be wrong So you hated me, when you see me in my worse, for long I’m sorry for the wrong things I’ve done And, if your expectations just went to none I’m sorry if I haven’t accomplished what you planned for me But, my goal is not to please you and it’s never meant to be

Behind this veil is a pure heart Behind this veil is a soul My action speaks my shyness Modesty means lower your gaze

Why you hate me? Why you don’t like me? Why you ashamed to wear me? What is the problem? Because I cover your body Because I hide your adornment Your beautiful hair, your skin  It is really a problem for you?

I’ve been thinking for a while now We live in a generation, With only hate and self desire You’re oblivious to the fact that the world is turning into a dark pit with your worst fears The worst fears that you say you would never turn into You turned into And before you know it You’re too late You’re long gone Gone with just a hazy memory of who you were Gone

I am 18 years old My life has been quite the road People don’t bother to know me But that is okay because, you see, I don’t put much effort in Getting to know them either, so it’s okay by me when They walk on past and say not a word I won’t think them a turd It’s only when they turn around And throw my rep, my life, to the ground That I tend to retaliate And that they receive looks of loathing and hate But it’s okay; I love my dear ones All else, I will simply shun

You are my Allah You forgive when others don’t, because You love me You are my Allah  You see my tears and respond when I call to You  You are my Allah  And if You will not Provide, who will sustain me?  You are my Allah And if You abandon me, to whom shall I turn?  You are my Allah Don’t leave me in the darkness, I have no Helper  You are my Allah And I need you at all times, please, erase my sins.  You are my Allah And all creation will die but you shall Exist.

As soon as the door says welcome, you begin to see your goodbye  It’s too late to say the truth was in front of your eyes  The knobs have turned and the future of your soul is at stake   So blinded by the glamour that covered up all the fake  You sold your soul for something not of worth even though  Allah warned it was all temporary on this Earth  But you deafened your ears  And turned your back on His Signs Now you will truly see that  His Promise is the most Divine He kept calling to you, asking you where you were going 

There is no definition for Loneliness brought on by self deprivation Rooted in fear and insecurities That feed and propel This ugly disease in the pit of my stomach I harbor like trapped animals on ships Dreaming of grassy plains and freedom There is no reason to share That I feel like death must feel The surprise of complete failure And vulnerability I say it anyway Aloud to no one at all If tears held thoughts I’d cry out  a million apologies If one of them was good enough I wouldn’t be writing down words again Instead of looking you in the eye

Suatu saat nanti Kita akan tahu mengapa kita ditakdirkan bertemu  Di tempat yang sama sekali tak terduga Dan dengan cara yang sedikit aneh Suatu saat nanti Kita pasti akan menyadari sesuatu Mengapa cinta terasa begitu sia-sia? Mengapa kita pada akhirnya harus berpisah?  Mengapa kita mampu menyerah atas segala masalah?  Mengapa perjuangan hanya sekedarnya saja?  Suatu saat nanti  Kita pasti akan merelakan semuanya  Tak lagi meragukan takdirNya Tak lagi mendesak bertanya tentang mauNya Tak lagi berpikiran negatif tentang kuasaNya Suatu saat nanti Akan kau lihat aku dengan penuh sukacita Dan akan kulihat kau dengan tatapan penuh rasa syukur Karena masa lalu ternyata adalah ladang pembelajaran  Untuk kita menjadi manusia yang bersabar Suatu saat nanti Kita akan saling mengenang tanpa air mata  Dan hanya akan ada senyuman Karena kita tahu pada akhirnya Hanya takdir Tuhan lah yang mutlak akan memp...